Throbs and Beats

My heart’s pumping more than just blood through my body and brain
Thoughts drench me from within, like cascading rain
Something so overpowering, it leaves everything else slain…
Just how much more of this can I take, can I sustain?

Long way to go to stop all this, it’s causing internal outrage
It’s pounding with the mighty beats of a drum against my ribcage

It throbs and beats, it throbs and beats…
Pushes my progress into hasty retreat

I feel an urge to rewind in time, a craving to go back
to go and do something I wanted to but didn’t, or fetch something I lack…
I feel like I’m losing cohesion, like I’m going slack
Asking myself questions that make me lose track

Long way to go to stop all this, it’s causing internal outrage
It throbs and beats with the mighty beats of a drum against my ribcage

I want to stop madly rejoicing every speck of light for the fear that I’m going blind
I’m trying to harden myself against the weird wanderings of my mind
I slowly recover, gain my consciousness…
The real world drives out my self-created emptiness…

I glance through the book of my life, find reams of empty sheets
and gradually continue filling them up while it throbs and beats.